perfectly honest post #1

cos u asked for it. WHICH MEANS YOU BETTER RESPOND. or go comment on my blog (also publishing to my blog via email, let's see if it works. ok.)

Okay.

i hate guys. THEY SUCK. i hate guys because they either don't actually want to be friends with you, or they DON'T DO WHAT YOU WANT THEM TO DO. Like i hate it when guys like me and they're all creepy and think i like them because i OBVIOUSLY DON'T and i don't fucking do anything that makes it seem that way. seriously. i can totally be not flirty if i want to you know. well some guys are cool and i like talking to them and they don't act creepy at all BUT MOST OF THEM DO. and by most of them i mean, most of the guys whom i don't like. well i wouldn't mind them as a friend but other than that i don't like them. also wtf, i know that guys are supposed to, like, initiate things, because otherwise girls totally wouldn't and nobody would ever be in a relationship with anybody, BUT STILL. How hard is it to learn not to be creepy? Oh i guess its like a social thing, some people just aren't very tactful. oh i guess that's not the main part. the main part is fucking then they don't want to be friends with me anymore cos if they're creepy i can't help not being nice to them. like if im nice to them that just makes things worse. but of course they stay friends with other girls so i dont have any guy friends who don't hate me anymore.

ON THE OTHER HAND, if there are guys that i think are cool or special or whatever and i WANT THEM TO LIKE ME, they don't. and i dont want them to like me cos i want to be a relationship with them or anything, cos i have a boyfriend, but i just want them to like me because i think it would be cute. AND OF COURSE THEY DON'T and don't act creepy at all even though it would be cute or act creepy but don't like me (which i guess is ok cos their type of creepiness is super cute). um, then i take it all personally and i hate them and get mad AND I WANT THEM TO SUFFER and i hate guys and want all guys to suffer but then im like no i just want those specific ones to because im mad at them. lol. of course these are generally the type of guys i describe as super innocent...um, not in the alex way, but more innocent than that...so of course i shouldn't take it personally but i do and then for some reason they stop talking to me too.

I HAVE LIKE 2 GUY FRIENDS WHO DON'T HATE ME OR NOT TALK TO ME ANYMORE SINCE THE BEGINNING OF FROSH YEAR. YEAH WTF? kthnxbye.

/rant